Passion.

10:13 pm. I feel lonely. Not to the point like I'm a loner, but I feel like alone in my pain. Maybe I'm just adjusting to my situation, it's not like I can't get over with this feeling. Maybe my heart, or myself rather, is searching for something I used to have. I used to have, I used to. Did I really had it once upon a time? Or I just assumed it, that I had it. A LOVER.

Sometimes, I think that I'm pathetic, thinking of someone, whom I never knew if  spent even 1 second thinking of me. Have you experienced that feeling, that you just need to believe? You don't see things to believe in. It's like you just rely on your FAITH. Our will aids our Faith, for without Will, it will be nothing. Fear, Premonitions and being Paranoid is the enemy of that Faith. Because of Fear, your thinking becomes clouded, and you lose the sight.

There was once this girl, who used to rely on me. Who used to think of me. Who used to miss me. Who used to love me. Before, she was just a Dream, got me Enchanted and Amazed, but still, not yet my Reality. I don't know how we turned out like this. I've always hated to ask her over and over again if she loves me, because I want to believe. I want to trust her, I really love her, but it's not enough to describe it. I know she knows how I feel, but I don't know how she feels right now. If she really feels the same, or whatever. She once left me. I don't know how things right now will work out. I don't know how to describe this.

Maybe now, the thing that's really going to make me happy is the Truth. About everything. About what she feels. About what she's thinking ahead of us. about what she wants to happen. The thing all about us. If this will go on, I want to keep the love going. I can't give up on her because she's all I wanted. I can understand whatever reason she has, because that's what she wants.

--DEAR.